He came in today and he just looked terrible. I talked with him for about twenty minutes and said a number of times, "I just feel like giving up. I feel so terrible, I just want it to be over." After he left today, I just felt sad. I was literally on the verge of tears. I wanted to pray for God take him peacefully to end his pain, but I wasn't sure how I felt about doing that.
Here's the thing, I feel like God has placed him in my life for some reason. I almost feel like he's been put into my life so that I can help him die with grace. That isn't a prideful thing. In fact, I'm not sure how to handle it. I feel like all I can do is treat him with respect and treat him like a human being; show him compassion and make his remaining time on earth (however long that might be) be as comfortable as possible. I'm not sure if I'm up to this, but the reality is that I don't think God cares if I feel up to it. He's here, he needs comfort in the form of gas money and food, and that's the deal.
So what's his name? It would appear to be Jesus.
Son, Read your previous blog entry on your discontentment. I'm not saying they are related, but hmmm. You will do the right thing. You may be one of the most pessimistic individuals I know, but you are also, one of the most compassionate. This gentleman was placed in your life for a reason.
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